Pansy to Pale
My books in our apartment
have faded a different color
Dark spines now shades of lavender
the titles have gone
from pansy to pale
Even when she fingers the blinds
closed all day
light finds a way
to wear ink thin
To combat excess
new vines dangle ubiquitous
Over each shelf
a graveyard
with shadows tucked
kitty-corner portraits
Sometimes I rotate the words
less direct sunlight
spells a shared wear-and-tear
My toenails shine orange
after I’ve painted them
with antifungal polish
and her paintings each are purple
after she combined
cracked makeup
with acrylic medium
When we moved in
we called it eclectic
Now I forget what my books look like
until she opens a window
Liam Max Kelley is a Chilean-American playwright, actor, poet, and high school language arts teacher. He is the program director at Stain’d Arts, an arts non-profit based in Denver, Colorado, and the co-founder of RuddyDuck Theatre Company, a local absurdist theatre group. He writes poetry to avoid making an argument, to highlight life’s horrid ambiguities, and to turn the heads of those he holds dear.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
bristling old wool shorn and barbed from so much wear. knitted with cheap
yarn, the acrylic kind that tightens too much, squeaks after
time and so many washes. a thick polyester clinging to the body
odor of the great aunt who first wore it. a light chiffon scarf
draped, artful but nonchalant. a coat patched too obviously.
stinking of the mothballs from a long-untouched winter closet.
how you are sewn into it
how you drive around a town you have not lived in for fifteen years. the
streets so foreign for the first few days. you, without clear compass or
signpost. home, a place of now-unfamiliar intersections. until on the
third day you feel a strange tug. a too-tight stitch pulling beneath the
muscles in your chest. a breath caught in the button of your throat.
because you suddenly know these storefronts, just with different
names. because you remember the shape and weight of who still
patterns the pavement below. who forever married a part of you to
this neighborhood. whose cord has been knotted to yours all along. you
have driven frightfully close to where something terrible happened. until
now you forgot the event even took place in a house at all. it existing
all this time only in the unnamable space of your hazy recollections.
and the stains it collects, the memory
every time you put on the shirt, your eyes go right to the small spot of
redness. you know the exact meal you were eating. how you were sitting at
a not proper dining space. how the sauce splashed when the pot boiled
over. how her homemade jam was thinner and dripped more. when the
brown corduroy got that conspicuous patch of dried glue along the front
most thigh. the leaking pen. the accident. the accidental. that which
you pick at and sniff at and rub in and soak with hopes of it fading more.
how you wear it, but also, how you are woven of it
you sense the distinct tastes inside your mouth whenever you look at the
photo. it is almost unbelievable now, teaching kindergartners to cook.
trusting such small and wild hands with knives to chop the radishes, a hot
griddle to fry up tortillas. you made butter as a class, taking turns shaking
the mason jar of cream. the excited aggression you all stifled around pet gerbils
and younger siblings having found an escape. a riot of children given task
and purpose for their agitation. you hold a photo of this day, see your own
smile as you chew a bit of buttered bread. see how you once delighted
so in it. how delicious it could be, the violence of so many hands.
Jade Lascelles is a writer, editor, musician, and letterpress printer based in Boulder, Colorado. She is the author of the full-length collection The Invevitable (Gesture Press, 2021). Selections of her work have also appeared in numerous journals and the anthologies Women of Resistance: Poems for a New Feminism and Precipice: Writing at the Edge, as well as being featured in the Ed Bowes film Gold Hill and the visual art exhibit and accompanying book Shame Radiant. Several of her poems were recently translated into Italian for the journal Le Voci della Luna. Beyond her writing endeavors, she is a longtime steward of the Harry Smith Print Shop at Naropa University, a core member of the art group The Wilds, and plays drums in a few different musical projects.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
I can recall my father walking me through the process
At an early age, he would say
Walking is one of the simplest ways you could show someone
Your freedom
“See, the first step to being enslaved is to actually get caught!
Why do you think Martin Luther King Jr and Cesar Chavez
Spent all that time marching!?”
“You have to stay on your toes, Mijo
This system has interesting ways of turning a man into a slave”
If you asked my father for a ride
He would tell you to
Walk
After crossing the desert for a better life
My father sees my walk to any Open Mic
As an easy stroll through the park walking
In my father’s footsteps has taught me that
If you love something you will do anything you
Can to get to it
Your feet will get you there if you allow them to
My father walks with the determination of an immigrant
Like his children will starve if he doesn’t walk fast enough
Like there are immigration agents chasing after him
He is America’s worst nightmare
A bad ass in a foreign country and I
Always wanted to walk just like him but
I always seem to take the wrong steps
Walking in and out of Jail
Pacing in my cell like a caged Ocelot
These must have been the ways you get
Enslaved my father talked about and
It all started in the seventh grade when doctors
Explained to my parents why I walked with a slight limp
My right leg was shorter than the left
Forcing me to apply most of my body weight on the right side
I developed a walk that would quickly label me a thug
I guess the inequalities I was exposed to finally
Drenched through my clothes and into my bones
So now I walk like I got a wounded knee
Like the structure holds me down by my back pockets
Saggy jeans are one of the side effects left over
From my oppression and
When you walk with this much weight at an
Early age your steps
Begin to sound like ticking bombs
The type of walk that’d make a motherfucker
Move out the way the type of walk
That’d make a cop want to follow you
In 2012 Trayvon Martin
and all the years after
Mike Brown
Eric Gardner
Jessie Hernandez
Sandra Bland
George Floyd was murdered for
Having the same walk as me
Trayvon was only 17
They asked me why I cried
Because he walked just like me
Because he was just like me!
Still perfecting his own walk still getting use to the
Feeling of walking in a black man’s shoes
This is the reason why boys like us
Never achieved social mobility
How can we climb the ladders of class if we can’t even
Walk through our neighborhoods without feeling like
Someone is chasing after us
But I’ll risk it all to show my son and the rest of the
Chavalitos in the world that we can walk to a
Better future instead of having to walk away from everything
That we can walk across the stage and graduate
Instead of having to walking in front of a judge
That if we all walk at the same time
The weight of our steps would force the world to flip its rotation
So stand up and walk with me
We have the world at our feet I think it’s time
That we exercise our freedom
Jozer G is a poet, musician and actor based out of Denver, Colorado! Jozer’s work has been featured on American Theater Magazine, HBO, PBS and Univision. Jozer released his debut EP on June 24th, and a new book at the end of the year!
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
Moonlit Slabs of Light on a Hernandez Church Floor
a cemetery
is lit by the light
of the moon, while time
stands seemingly still,
lamenting a
timeless value,
which covers the empty floor
in a shape
of a dying face,
the hollow bell knells solemnly
for the dead to linger there,
to be buried again
hollering is the reason for
the isolation of solidarity--
a tragedy
that befell the dead,
the decaying reason has taken their chance
beneath a standing tree made into crosses,
the mountains are alive
yet they appear dead,
there is no willful purpose,
while a fly sit humming on the sill
and ants gather,
to confirm the time is still ticking,
that light gleaming on the floorboards,
never ends the ceasing shadow —but it does
—but that light
is beyond the dead
Crisosto Apache is from Mescalero Apache Reservation in New Mexico (US) and lives in Lakewood, CO. They are Mescalero, Chiricahua Apache, and Diné of the Salt Clan born for the Towering House Clan. They are Assistant Professor of English and Associate Poetry Editor for The Offing Magazine. Crisosto’s debut collection GENESIS (Lost Alphabet) stems from the vestiges of memory and cultural identity of self-emergence as language, body, and cosmology. Crisosto is an Associate Professor of English at the Rocky Mountain College of Art & Design. They hold an MFA from the Institute of American Indian Arts in Santa Fe, NM. Their latest collection of poetry, GHOSTWORD, is available now through Gnashing Teeth Publishing.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
Reviewed by South Broadway Press Editor, Brice Maiurro
In Glass Bikini, I want to say that Kristin Bock throws us smack dab in the center of an endless-seeming funhouse. Funhouse feels incomplete though. Riddled with everything from angels to monsters, robots to ghosts, Bock has strewn together many worlds, funhouses, haunted houses, universes, and open fields alike.
Bock has a knack for quick, weirdo storytelling the likes of James Tate, but Bock separates from Tate when her words turn down darker roads, often leaving the reader with a profound feeling that something substantial has just occurred. I found myself reflecting on the absurdity of my own experience. In the lawless land of a universe where snowmen cry tears of fire, I was given permission as the reader to reside in whatever strange corner of the ether that called to me.
Monsters are probably the most common image of the collection, stomping around at the intersection of childlike whimsy and our collective trauma. This is aided by a selection of quotes throughout by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, author of Frankenstein. In her second poem, “Creation Myth”, the poet herself creates a monster. “The ideal monster is 8 hands tall,” says Bock establishing her authority on the creation of these terrible creatures. The poem continues on to place together the ornate details of this monster before ending with “Then, find the ribbon within the figure, the gesture at its center and pull.” She seems to advise us how to make a monster, just to show us then how to dismantle one. “Sometimes monsters are so big you can’t see them,” Bock reminds us in “The President’s Dream.”
This theme continues throughout the collection. A matter-of-fact building of a surreal world, if only to figure out how to escape it. A looking-in-the-eye of the ugly and scary, then blown away as soon as Bock decides to send in the hurricane.
At times the world-building is devastatingly quick. In “How Rabbits Finally Took Over the World”, Bock says, “Sometime after the extinction of whales,” as if it were just a throwaway line. I want to stop, and grieve this loss, but in what feels like a mirroring of our own modern world, I’m left with the deep feeling that there is simply no time. There is too much to do and say, and my longing to process all this change will have to be placed on the backburner, possibly to never be revisited.
Where so many poems in existence might feel like a warm hug, or floating down a river, with Bock’s poems, I often felt I had found myself in a bear trap, or perhaps a wormhole between universes. She wonderfully works with dark matter, as if she is acting as the great organizer of the animalistic floats and mannequin musicians in a parade of the shadow self.
One of the turns I found astounding in Glass Bikini was the occasional page turn to something romantic and incredibly present. In “Barn Burning” the poet comes home to a barn on fire, and in an undoubtedly spiritual moment shares with us,
“Out of the smoke / a mare walked up to me / slowly, as if she knew me— / as if we weren’t on fire.”
Moments like this were the highlight of the collection for me. In the middle of so much frenetic chaos, an undoubtable and slow encounter with beauty held so much weight to me as the reader.
Bock is well-aware of that reader, and the relationship that she is engaging them in. Her poems in the second person had a strong “you” to them, as if Bock were reaching her hand out directly to us to belong here, come hell or high water. With the same insistence as John Lennon’s famous “picture yourself on a boat on a river,” Bock presents the reader with less of a request to come along, and more of a sudden and total immersion.
I’d have to say my favorite poem in the collection was “Pluto”, where Bock casts a spell on a laundry list of all of the bigots, abusers, racists, and misogynists of the world, sending them to the cold recesses of space. “[T]here’s a place for you here,” says Bock, “ inside my vacuous core of ice and ash.” Bock firmly draws a hard line in the sand against these all-too-real monsters and monstrous ideologies that persist on the main stage of society.
Bock’s poetry is a magic I want to see more of. In Glass Bikini, she is resolute to fall as deep as she can into the rabbit hole, prepared to make and unmake the cruelest of monsters and reform herself in the shade of whatever strange color she can. This is what I want of poetry, the humility and power of a collection like Glass Bikini. One section of the book is introduced with an Emily Dickinson quote “’Tis so appalling—it exhilarates—“. This appalling exhilaration finds home in the words of Bock to remind us that these fever dreams are a masterful mimicry of our sober reality.
Glass Bikini was published by Tupelo Press and is available for purchase here.
Prune the leaves- pluck the crisp ones that no longer serve her, watch them hit the floor with a bone crunch. Gently untangle her vines from their previous cage. Dislocate her from one pot, descending to the next.
We place her into the soil. Pearlite and peat moss, spilling past the edges of her new shelter, dusting your Pine-Sol purified floor.
Pat her down, our hands meet under the dirt, a brush of unearned domesticity. Specks of soil, line the ridges of your fingertips, granting anonymity to your palms.
Sitting knee to knee, surrounding her dwelling. I gaze into your eyes and wonder, will this be her final resting place? Or will we uproot, disrupt her growth, push her past the point of no return?
Lillian Fuglei is a Colorado based poet. She began writing poetry in High School, after a lifetime of attending open mics thanks to her mother. She currently bounces between two of the highest paying jobs possible, substitute teaching and freelance journalism. You can find her on Instagram at literary.lillian.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
I am dreaming of An Alabama night- Crickets chirping; echoing Of sentiment, breaking The song of the loon Diving, strutting Through phrases, phases Of a honeysuckle Milk glass moon Whose distant sway Ripples, pools, pulls Pebbled ponds, precious pearls Where locals gather To swim, fish, skip stones Across reflections of sky and stars.
I am. falling, failing- Form fleeing a cold city An asp escaping This fruitless orchard A moth chained by the Candlelight of a distant beacon.
I close my eyes See the pines, skies White wings, fluttering Glittering patchwork Transforming. I am again A small-town boy Taking the back road, Wooded path winding To the Jackson-Slaughter bridge; Racing in the pecan grove, Chasing shadows, fireflies; Laughing, dreaming, laying Staring, believing- feeling The force; the iron vein Of a vanishing home- Remembering more from Windows that never close A place I no longer belong.
M. Palowski Moore is a poet, writer and storyteller. He has five volumes of poetry, including the Lambda Award nominee BURNING BLUE. His compositions reflect diverse themes and interpretations of prejudice, racism, socioeconomic inequality, homophobia and systemic oppression. He is a contributing poet to the Civil Rights Memorial Center (SPLC) community poem A CIVIL COMMUNITY, a new exhibit that will be featured inside the final gallery of The Civil Rights Memorial Center.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
Every body has a right to shelter in a home. To be safe from cold, the heat, the storm.
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We want a house built by the people / we want walls of justice / we want liberation / we want windows and doors of possibility / look outside / in a world where everyone has a home / anything is possible / how do we transform /
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“Home is where the heart is.” The heart is the size of your fist. Some things are worth fighting for.
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Homelessness is not a choice.
Criminalizing survival is unconstitutional.[1]
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The body— my body is made of rooms of memory— The body— my body is made of hallways— The body— my body does not remember— The body— my body remembers everything
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Here is my skin. Imagine all of the things I have touched. Here are my bones.
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I do not remember leaving the dwelling of my mother’s body. I do not remember being born.
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What does it mean to care for another?
[1] Denverhomelessoutloud.org
Liza Sparks (she/her) is an intersectional feminist, writer, poet, and creative. She is a brown-multiracial-queer-woman living and working in Colorado. Her work has appeared with Ghost City Review, Bozalta Collective, Cosmonauts Avenue, and many others; and is forthcoming with Honey Literary, Split This Rock’s social justice database—The Quarry, and will be included in Nonwhite and Woman Anthology published by Woodhall Press in 2022. Liza was a semifinalist for Button Poetry’s Chapbook contest in 2018 and was a finalist for Denver Lighthouse Writers Workshop Emerging Writer Fellowship in Poetry in 2020 and 2019. She is a poetry reader for The Chestnut Review. You can read more of Liza’s work at lizasparks.com, IG @sparksliza534, or TW @lizathepoet.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
You open the apartment door and it is just wood. Wood behind the door. You need to enter your apartment. To sleep. To work. To clean. You burrow into the wood with a small drill bore. You carve a desk inside the wood. You leave legs of the wood in each corner of the room so the wood roof doesn’t collapse on you, crushed by mahogany in the night. You wake one day and it is raining paper. A hole has split in the wood from all the paper where it was leaking from the bathtub upstairs. The paper is covered in all your upstairs neighbor’s poetry. Your upstairs neighbor is always so loud, crying for whole weeks at a time. Your neighbor is so loud the sound bleeds through the mahogany. The mahogany is now spilling into your bed, your bed you carved yourself out of the desk, the desk which appeared behind the door, the apartment which was drowned in poetry. The future that is always words.
Wheeler Light is an MFA candidate at the University of Virginia. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in Hobart, Pretty Owl Poetry, The Penn Review, and Broadsided Press, among others. His work can be found at www.wheelerlight.net
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home.Purchase here.
My family grew corn in the heartland, but I’ve never seen it quite like this:
Angelic, husk-winged, guarding every shard of bone hidden in the soil.
How is it that I didn’t know I had thousands of angels? They were with me all the time.
I remember going out into the fields with my grandpa, crossing into the humid network, stalks sending out messages to each other across droplets of August air.
I could hear their choir, their low and incandescent hum, the sway of bass clef notes rocking me to sleep in the farmhouse.
Emily Dickenson advised us all to tell the truth slant, and I remember this is what hailstorms taught the fields. The slant truth seemed tragic, in a way, as if nothing stays upright or rooted for long. Not even cornstalks.
Not even families.
Not even farmhouses, burned to the ground long after they’ve become vacant, when the small town fire department needs a fire to practice on.
Something is always missing.
Maybe it’s just a three-hundred-sixty degree view, the ability to see that everything is overflowing,
all the time.
Cortney Collins lives on the Front Range of Colorado with her two beloved feline companions, Pablo (after Neruda) and Lida Rose (after a barbershop quartet song in The Music Man). She is the founder of the pandemic-era virtual poetry open mic, Zoem. Zoem produced an anthology of its poets’ work, Magpies: A Zoem Anthology, of which she is co-editor. Her work has been published by South Broadway Press, 24hr Neon Mag, Amethyst Magazine, Sheila-na-Gig, Back Patio Press, and others. Cortney considers herself a poet secondarily; her first calling is encouraging others’ beautiful words in community.
This poem is from South Broadway Press’ new anthology, Dwell: Poems About Home. Dwell will be available to purchase August 1st, 2022.