
BOOK REVIEW:
RAISED BY FERNS
BY MAYA JEWELL ZELLER
A BOOK REVIEW BY SHELLI ROTTSCHAFER
Raised by Ferns begins with an epigraph by Diane Seuss:
I am so hungry
for the song that grows tall like a weed
grows, and grows.
Zeller yearns for her words to grow, and they do. They dig roots down to briny delta water. They spindle outward like invasive but naturalized blackberries that are common in the Pacific Northwest.
Maya’s story begins in the myths she has been told, in the wondering of, “What’s Real, What’s True, What’s Worth Retelling” (20). She was born into the hands of midwives. She was cradled in Mayan-wool blankets her German-born father imported from Guatemala to the US. Her rural childhood taught her the necessity to forage, accept the ghosts of worn down farmhouses like additional family members. She and her family lived itinerantly, a mobile and hybrid lifeway able to call various shelters home.
Zeller’s ability to find home in a variety of ways also informs her writing. Her prose is fed by her poetry. Her poetry is nourished in nature. Her human nature is scribed in stanza, strophes, and verse-filled metaphors. Her stories are a herstory; a seed that begats its next iteration:
The Himalayan blackberry came to the United States from Eurasia
in 1885, and it spread into the hills….
Cancer spreads not like a military but like a blackberry….
Cancer isn’t militant so much as fruitful – it produces globules of black gold.
The globules of berries are not unlike the beads of sand on my fingers while I eat berries on the beach near where I was born (21-22).
And so, Zeller’s prose is born through her ecopoetics.
Maya recalls her parents as “free spirits” and she and her siblings as semi-feral, but there is more than meets first glance (25). A father with addiction, a boy-home escapee, a mother stepping out of a Midwest confined in Catholicism; both were determined to do things differently than their previous generation. Perhaps, this desire to do things differently has rubbed off on Zeller as well. She vacillates between what Wallace Stevens states as “of two minds” (8). To have, and to have not. To choose a lifeway, or to choose another life. To gain education painstakingly, or to pretend one has always had privilege and access. As an adult, Maya now knows both painfully well.
Zeller states, “I learned early the advantage of keeping my opinions to myself, and then later to be heard I’d have to yell them…. I learned to search for patterns and shape them to my advantage (27). Maya’s navigation gives her strategy in her writing, what she reveals and what she weaves. This she learned through books, the public library often was her teacher. Libraries gave access to things, worlds, and concepts that otherwise would not have been available. For young Maya the library was what, “some kids in cities might anticipate the ice cream truck… new flavors. I could almost taste the books” (28). Books and the stories they held were her cherry-on-top.
In her writing, Zeller is, “not interested in another pastoral that shows you the honey but not the sting” (33). She wants the real, “the pus and entrails,” the busted stitches to the finished quilt (33). Like the squares that are darned together to make a whole, each essay is part of the patchwork that makes her memoir.
Folks often ask Zeller, “how [she] got from there to here” (40); it’s not a vertical trajectory. It’s muscle memory, like water in a flood plain, it remembers. A fibrous rhizome that spores out in order to survive. Maya has gotten where she is through hard work, elder knowledge passed onward, and personal tenacity. What engages her is to find wonder. Curiosity in the wild, in glancing through fern leaves, in observing her own children – this is what feeds her well.

As her reader moves through her various essays, Zeller peals back her pain. The discovery that her life partner is having an affair, the nudging on her psychosis that the friend is more than a friend. Her world is up-ended, but she has, “had a lot of practice in overcoming shit” (226). Yet, the full reveal takes time. There is more to it all and she asks of herself, “What does the body know that we don’t? (229).
As a child, she learned to lean on herself and the world she created through storytelling. As an adult, she, “learned, by unlearning to love… that her mind and blood and babies” half belonged to him (230). How could she reclaim her stardust, her hours, her life? She could do so by writing her own herstory. That is what Raised by Ferns is, a telling, a gathering of all the things she has thus far learned.
In her Epilogue Zeller wonders what is both “Real and Not Real” (231). What are the myths she has been told, what are the stories she has created, and what is the legacy she hopes to carry forward for herself, her children, and her reader?
There are times of epiphany, when once something brought pleasure, she realizes a thing she normally loved needs to be left behind. These are the tough but necessary goodbyes. Maya explains, “I couldn’t help but note some proximal off-ness,” a layer that must be shed (231). She knows, “the body holds each fact” and needs to flush itself of dead skin, even one that has been intertwined with her own.
This is the moment, she asks her ex-partner to be honest with her when he is unwilling to be. To be direct with what he wants when he is only capable of directly being hurtful. It takes more than two and a half years, but Zeller learns to make amends with herself knowing that – most importantly – she needs to be honest and direct with herself rather than accept, “the Numb” (235). Maya lays it plain, “I’m navigating something psychologically unmooring – something complex and monstrous and technical and ineffable” (239-240). An unraveling of the stability she was determined to create as a reaction to the “free spirit” and unsteady ground of her own childhood.
Zeller realizes it is difficult and a false equivalency. She questions, “How can I help my children trust themselves, develop ways to cope and self-regulate in a world that isn’t getting better?” (241).
Her answer is that she still has hope in a world with snow falls, an ocean replete with sea stars, and summer-time blackberries that stain lips with sweet.
READ: AN INTERVIEW WITH MAYA JEWELL ZELLER
RAISED BY FERNS
BY MAYA JEWELL ZELLER
AVAILABLE THROUGH PORPHYRY

Shelli Rottschafer (she / her / ella) completed her doctorate from the University of New Mexico, Albuquerque (2005) in Latin American Contemporary Literature. From 2006 until 2023 Rottschafer taught at a small liberal arts college in Grand Rapids, Michigan as a Professor of Spanish. She also holds an MFA in Creative Writing with a concentration in Poetry and coursework in Nature Writing from Western Colorado University (2025).
Shelli’s home state is Michigan, yet her wanderlust turns her gaze toward her new querencia within the Mountain West where she lives, loves, and writes in Louisville, Colorado and El Prado, Nuevo México with her partner, photographer Daniel Combs and their Pyrenees-Border Collie Rescue.
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