today i’m definitely feeling like the forest.
like despite the fascist metal shadow of one thousand windows
i am still just the forest.
just the truth.
just the closest thing to unadulterated.
pure and untainted i wander into myself and understand this is endless.
i don’t have to be anything other than a forest unto myself.
and there is grace in acknowledging that i know that i am clearly dying.
to watching my roots pull up by the insatiable grasp of my limbs.
earthworms digging in the beds of my feet.
i am not the city.
not today.
today i’m definitely feeling like the forest.
Tag: poets
poem #1 – ghost #3
When you left the clocks stopped working.
Their hands, my hands, they all forgot to move. I fell asleep to the last of your scent on my pillow and awoke months later in a new season.
I do not recognize the landscape here and all of the trees have changed.
contract – ghost #1
i’m missing my contacts,
i yell up to him
from our new bathroom
in the city
i didn’t plan on
returning to
you’re missing your context? he calls back
Dear Stranger, – ghost #2011
Dear Stranger,
I very much enjoy a complete unknown.
To cast a net into the vast ‘everything is possible’
and come back caterwauling or else enchanted;
I swim in murky waters,
walk deer trails during new moons
when one can’t even see the smallest
fingertip at arm’s length.
You are a moon that needs a telescope,
these letters are lenses we twist
and if I see your glowing surface,
you also see the eye of my blue
peeping at you in wonder.
Who are you?
Has anyone ever asked?
What are your phases?
There’s something to a dark side never seen,
a promise of an edge once stepped over,
the moving of a hand through the surface
of still water, a darkened foot,
a detached hand.
A fish gasping in the air,
pulled from a child’s hands
and fileted by a grandmother.
What’s within is its own unknown.
The wet and dark interior
of its own infinity of stars,
electric with memory,
chance and even hope.
Hope is its own terror,
the eggs of the shark
spilling on the butcher’s block,
a leech between your toes,
a cave-in after you’ve passed
the deepest cavern
and become trapped
with dark water, lightless,
cold,
or maybe with a full moon,
a song, a soft bed
and a shoulder to rest your head on.
Intangible Ceiling – ghost #62
The great barrier reef has been officially pronounced dead.
The coffee at work is burnt.
There are at least three bats living in my broken fireplace.
There are ghost children in the back of throat.
They taste like the sea in the places where the sea is garbage.
The news is being spoken in braille.
Trains are falling of cliffs.
Men in hats are sneaking around strangling women.
There is a room that is nothing but mattresses and for some reason I want to lay at the floor and stare at the ceiling at the synthetic lights
pretending they are the only sky I’ve ever known.
So manageable
families of flies dancing around a false god
unaware of the tempest that is brewing through the intangible ceiling.
i want to eat every petal of every flower in every field – ghost #13
i want to eat every petal of every flower in every field
and fall asleep at night with a garden in the dust of the gut of me
churning into the soil of my stomach like some strange motor oil
and waking me in the dark soul of the night with new fucking flowers
new burning new beauty flowers organic and undaunted and honest
as night birds climb in mass on the top of the roof of this opera
and congregate to listen to the sound of me being born way too late
and way too late is never way too late when you’re born an opera
when you born of dead things as unusually and impeccably alive
a parade traveling through a graveyard at dusk inside of me
and never a question of what could have been because it all has been
because it all has been and i am awake and hungry and searching for petals
and searching for petals to ingest every segment of humanity over and again
i begin.
i begin right fucking
now.

